Think about it

hello people. I officially declare that it's been 2 days, 3 nights I've been wasting my time. Doing nothing but watching tv, online-ing, finishing up minor homeworks and texting. Very well, it's obious i'm still in the holidays mode. Few minutes ago, I encountered a blog of when I was searching the google about residential accommodation of universities abroad. I, who love reading educated people's blog, buka dan bacalah. It's nice, and pleasuring to even read a man's journey abroad to pursue his studies. It's just wonderful and of course, it made me to think, will I be like him someday?

That's not my main idea anyway. I'm hear to talk on an issue that has been bothering me for a few days, just a day before I left my maktab for the cny holidays. It happened during a silent night prep, when i confessed loudly (such that everyone heard) that I dislike mixed-gender schools, and I wish I'm in all-girls school. Then someone asked me, I should stop being so feminine-istic.

mukadimah 

Tak semestinya muka normal ketika tersentuh itu aku menerima dengan terbuka, dalam hati, Allah sahaja yang tahu bergelora dan sangat kecewa bila aku gagal menjaga hak kulitku sekali gus, memusnahkan batasan benteng pergaulan. Gagallah aku menjadi Muslim yang baik bila tersentuh dengan yang bukan muhrim dalam hari itu.

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once, back in sggs, I am free to laugh out loud, cracking jokes, free to do anything but here in my current college? I am to watch all my behaviors, lower my gaze and it's never so easy. Life is hard, it will be harder, growing together with age. I am not tough girl, but neither am I so weak and fragile. Miss Mimie said to me, I can go through any of this breakdown i'm experiencing cause no man is tested greater that his might. The clock is ticking, time is moving, and I will endure this year with iman. Insyaallah.